This is a photo I snapped while camping at one of my favorite places along the Rogue River in Oregon. It is a foggy day here in Texas this morning too. I actually love foggy mornings, except when they last throughout the day and then into the next and the next. The problem with fog is it hides things that we need to see.
It has not been long enough since I wrote about a mother's loss and once again my heart has been burdened for another mom who has lost her child. At the same time there is rejoicing with a mom whose prodigal has returned. What a roller coaster. As I wept on Sunday night, God saw me. He heard me. As I rejoiced on Tuesday night, God saw me. He heard me. He is always there for me, even when all I can manage is a cry of weakness. Do not fear, little flock, for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom. -Luke 12:32, NKJ. That is a lot easier to accept when the news is good. Another verse hit me this morning, Narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life...Matthew 7:14a. Difficult is the way. Isn't it supposed to be easy once we accept Jesus as Lord and Savior? I am back to the song that was on my heart a couple of weeks ago- Held-and this line in particular: Who told us we'd be rescued? What is changed and why should we be saved from nightmares? We're asking why this happens to us who have died to live, it's unfair.
I know that some of my nightmares have been my own doing. Others have been the result of evil in the world around me. The only thing that has not changed for me is that God still sees me. He still hears me. At my best, He has been there. At my worst, He has remained faithful.
My world is full of questions that I don't have good answers to. This is one thing I do know- I don't have to live in fear. By nature I am a very fearful person. I jotted one more verse down in my notebook today: But why do you call Me "Lord, Lord" and not do the things which I say? Honestly when I wrote that one down I was thinking it was for someone else. But, how many times has He told me not to fear? How many times did I read today in the Gospels that I should not worry about anything? My life is a witness to God's faithfulness and yet I still struggle in this area. O Father God, help me to trust You and not fear-lift the fog that hides what I need to see today.